steve shaw

Living on the Sun

What's another day without the sun

What's another hour lost in time

What's another memory submerged in love

What's another lost soul that will fall

What's another winter's day gone bad

What's another slow walk through your lies

What's another game of solitaire

What's another loser's spiteful glare

What's another chance lost from your past

What's another few years unattached

What's another payment on your soul

What's another feeling you don't know

Don't save me

I'll be just fine here-too cold to burn

And after all you've done

I'm still living on the sun

Imaginary Friend

Not so long ago, I gave up, I guessed wrong

I turned my mind on what was love

Voices came to me, eased my mind, helped me find

Then they showed me what it was

My imaginary friend

Funny how it seems, all alone, all left out

Except for when I'm in my dreams

With my imaginary friend

In my mind I feel you fly through me 

I know how this may appear

I know that it's really here

Though it's never in my sight, it's in my mind

My imaginary friend

Leap

We talked last night for an eternity

We talked of universal sanctity

We talked of races bonding, outer space and fantasy

We travelled space far out beyond our means

Our minds strode farther than our eyes could see

I fought the demons seething

Their constant fighting over me

What you will or won't deny

What the world will sacrifice

I can't remember what I was before

I know not where I came from years ago

I fought my father's failures, 

What I saw was what he saw in me

They keep getting to me

They're what always makes me weak

It makes me want to leap-

Tomorrow may well be 

But yesterday is all I see

Is yesterday

Maybe Some Other Time

I know this road could never stretch so far

As I need it to, as it passes though

My reflection illuminating out

Though the rain has stopped,

It's warm enough to walk all night

My sentimental mind is losing fast 

Though the tears have past year ago

I try to breathe in deep the rays of the moon

Comfort is coming soon, it's coming soon…

My imagination runs  a thousand miles

Beyond where I feel Or the scope of what is real

I know the dawn's not far from where I stand

As stars glimmer hope, I know better now

I used to love to dream 

And think about so many things

But somewhere something seemed to got so wrong

My mind went numb

As I recalled that lonesome night

You said, "In another life - maybe some other time"

Peace

Lost in the space that I laced

And forever forgotten

A dream so it seemed

As I woke in a state of not wanting

The clouds in my mind were all fading

As voices of peace stood there waiting

It's the same but the name 

And in time I was all that was mine

Can't you see that we're leaving

Can't you see when you're stoned

What the hell were you thinking

Why don't you leave me alone?

Is it clear through the air

Of this place for which I am longing?

Is it too much for such of a cynic 

That you have become?

Is it possible to feel your time coming?

Is it tarnished so that you can't believe?

Is the evil the side of the life for which you've become?

It's the feeling of sealing the fate 

That I once ignored

It's the side of the life 

Of the serenity of being one

It's the sweet salvation that once was blind

It's the thought that I once thought was a ghost

It's the way that will stay

An those who have none have the most

Cheerful Regret

I wanted to tell you but you would not hear

I wanted to show you but things were not clear

You wanted to shove me right out of the way

I wanted to tell you...

You promised me freedom, but all that I see

The more that you hoard things, the more that you're free

So now I am saving this one thing for you

I wanted to tell you...

I wanted to tell you but now it's too late

Once the streets were cold and dark

And you walked right past me

Now the streets are still dark

And you're laying next to me

When you received my gift

You had that gaze in your eyes

Seems I took your breath away,

and now your life

But I wanted to tell you…

Soulmate

I've cast aside my troubled mind

I'm floating on to higher ground

It makes me high

I've shunned the thorns of a lonely world

I'll light the sky until it's all over

And fly away

On the sound of the soulmate's song

I've seen that side too many times

I've walked the thread and looked miles down

I'm stronger now

And watch me as I burn right through

I'll kiss the sun and hug the moon

And fly away

On the sound of the soulmate's song

Seems we've lived and we've died

And we're no longer shaken

Carousels in our minds

For our bodies are taken

Free our souls as they soar

We're a long ways away

And it make me sad to go away

My Blue Friend

Well good morning my oldest friend

It seems so long since I have listened

I never thought before

I never dreamed it would go so wrong

My good friend

I always knew your beauty real

And now you warn me that you're leaving

Am I the only one

Is there noone else to hear your plea?

My good friend

And when it all comes down

And when all hope is gone

I know the blue marble will fall, all alone

My blue friend

Another Lonely Day

The sunlight creeps inside my room

I shade my eyes to hide this lightened gloom

The tears from last night all have dried

I wipe them clean but cannot reach the tears inside

I shake the cobwebs from my mind

The things today, the truth I cannot find 

Sometimes I wish I could recede

A child dreaming endless dreams

The things that bring me into life

They pull me out again with daily strife

I think of the loved ones in my dreams

A long life means that I will bury them

And so many want to kill

The soldiers deadly skill

Take me back to innocence

(When there was love and there was hope and there was us)

I guess I'll always be alone

The solitude in a world of one

I doubt there will be any calls today

So I guess I'll just roll over and in bed I'll stay

The things I think of as I wake…

Though the will to live is strong,

Another lonely day

Wilt Away

Shock me, shoot me through the sky

Run with me, run out through the night,

Before I wilt away and die

Before I wilt away

Save me, cover what I've seen

Show me how things could have been

Before I wilt away and die

Before I wilt away

Watch me as I fade away

See my eyes as I slowly fade

With what I've seen

I know this dream is gone

So hold me, close your breath on me

Walk with me, say it's all a dream

Before I wilt away and die

Before I wilt away

Lost

Wait for home

Wait, we can find it here for us all

And you know when we'll find home

And we'll find it way beyond

The mirrors we've dealt with here

Way beyond the openings they've cleared

But for now it's a long-lost road

Feelings gone

I can't hep but feel I'm lost

Many times we've felt the sting

We've cornered life

But held nothing in our hands

Because it broke down just like glass

Leaving shreds of what we were

And it never happens here

Only violent tears bears the silence here

And we're lost

Though we'd love to feel their warmth 

I can't help but feel I'm lost

Watching it all come down

Watching it all fade black

Knowing it won't come back

Knowing I've always been lost

Portrait of a Man

We saw it all in black and white

A document of your life

Some people put you down

Others raised you high

But you even said yourself

"I'm just a clown in disguise"

You searched for peace in a revolution

Seems someone's gun was the final solution

Cut down by a stranger's hands

So hard to believe

Such the death of a peaceful man

What a cruel irony

Because you always said give peace a chance

Sister Golden Hair